10dpo and BFP!!!

well, today is the first time in my life that I ever took a pregnancy test and it said Pregnant!! I just have been feeling weird, breast tenderness, frequent peeing, cramping, etc., and so I decided to take a test this morning just for the heck of it and it was a BFP!!! I am cautiously excited because I called the RE and they said that they can't rule out the "trigger" giving me the positive, even though I have previously tested on 10dpo and got BFN, so I'm very optimistic. All of the boards on the nest...TTC, success after IF tell me they have see this before and the drugs should be out of my system. I sure hope so!! I'm going for bloodwork on Thursday morning, I hope it says the same thing!

Optimistically Waiting...

Well, the IUI's were a hit!! Daddy's counts were great this month, 100 mil and 120 mil respectivley compared to about 20 million in the previous months IUI's! So they happened on 1/4 and 1/5 with a lot of BDing around those times too ;-) So, now we just sit here and wait. My breasts are very tender and have been for quite a few days and usually its only for a few days before my period and my RE said it could be an early sign! God-willing, that is what it is. My hormone levels and lining look great and 2 eggs ovulated, so all we can do it sit and wait and hope this it!!

So far, so good

The injectable needles are a breeze, well, let me rephrase that, they're nothing compared to what I thought they would be.

The first needle was a mental battle with myself. I must have filled the syringe 3-4 times to make sure I get every bubble out, even though they wouldn't kill me since they're not in my veins and I was probably just making them up. Then I alcoholed everything including myslef A LOT of times to make sure it was sterile, lol, I have issues. And it took me about a hlaf an hour to get myself to do it and Derek just kept saying it'll be fine..but I'm not doing it LOL. And really, it wasn't bad at all! Last nights hurt a teeny bit and bled a smidget but I think it was because I didn't get it to room temp. Even though you don't really feel that, but who knows.

Well, originally when I went in on Monday, New years eve 2007, they found 9 eggs...all measuring between 9-15 and most were on the 9-11 side. This is about normal, but shows thats I'm responding well to the injectables! Yesterday when I went, I have 2 at mature size (17.5, 18.5) so tonight I'm going to trigger and go for back to back IUI's again on Fri and Sat. Though they only measured 7 yesterday, they stopped measuring them around the 9-10 and I had quite a few more, but wit hthe other 2 so big, they won't mature in time anyway. Oh yea and we had one at 13, they didn't say anything about it, but it can still grow after the trigger and may be able to be released as well, but truly, only God knows.

So, hopefully this weekend will be it.

IUI #2&3 a bust...

Well, this last cycle was a bust too so it's on to injectables...YIKES!! I am taking 100 mg clomid for cd3-7 and then today I start 150mg of gonal-f injectables and go see whats developing on monday. I hope this works...I HATE needles!!!! Yesterday Linda taught us how to do the injectables and when she did it to me it didn't hurt at all...so I hope that I can do the same thing because Derek refuses to stick a needle in me. I hope this works, because if not I think we're going to take a break for a while....not quite sure what our next step is or what our ins coers..they change their mind every day!! Plus we've spent a LOT of $$ so far and I am so thankful that they gave me the injectables for free or else we wouldn't be able to do them.

I know that I don;'t write in here as often as I should, but I feel that when I write it, I think about it a LOT and then I cry, so I try t not cry so much, but hopefully we'll have a healhty baby this cycle since I have alrady responded to the clomid so fingers crossed and lots of preayers to God!!

This cylce seems to be going better....

Well, this cycle I went on day 12 to check for progress and I had an 18 and 20 mm egg so on cd14, 12/5 we went in for an IUI and a trigger shot. And then back on Thurs 12/6 for another IUI, which both had good counts and motility like a Christmas sale at Macys, lol! The shot hurt...A LOT and I still have a red mark in the spot and it hurt for a few days, but if it brings us a healthy you, then I don't care about all this proding and pricking! Well, on 12/12 we see where my estrogen levels and uterine lining are at and on 12/19 we shall find out the truth about this cycle!! I hope this work and we have a Christmas miracle!!

This cycle was a bust....

Well, my one percious egg did not get fertilized and my AF came the night before Thanksgiving! So I had to go in on Sat for baseline bloodwork and an ultrasound and boy was that interesting!! There were 2 ladies there that I've never met before and the one that did my bloodwork and us was like 80-90 years old and sooo slow. The us was probably like 15 mins long!!! Well, all I have to say is all is well, all of my meds are raised and I have to begin them today, cd5, so we'll see God-willing this will be our lucky cycle. I think I will ask for a trigger shot to be more percise and I will def do at least one IUI and question the benefits of a second back-to-back one. I will do all that we can to get you here into this world and most of, keeping the both of us healthy in the meantime! Well, I'll let you know what happens next week when I go in for monitoring.

Update on RE appts

Well, I haven't updated in a while. Last week I went to the RE on m/w/f to get my levels and see if I was close to ovulating. Well on Wednesday when I was at day 15 and I hadn't made much progress since Monday I broke down. I was really upset, but god answered my prayers like always and on Friday I found out that I have one good egg on the right hand side and I was close to ovulating!!! I was on cloud nine...it was so exciting!! So I went on Monday 11/5/07 for an IUI. It was very intersting....we got the "gift" in the parking lot to be fresh and then it has to be washed and you have to wait afterwards and wear a plastic baggie inside!! Wait until I tell you this story!! So now we're playing the waiting game and on Mon 11/12 I have to go back and get blood work done beacuse if my estrogen levels aren't up you wont become implanted even if you were "fertilized" so I guess depending on my levels I may need to take shots....but one step at a time.

Louis's wife Ada had a dream (without knowing what we're going through) that I was prego with twins, so we'll see, but right now I'm focusing on have one healthy baby, if I have more than 1 thats great as well..as long as they're healthy. I had a dream last night too that I took a prego test and it had 2 lines, but its still to early to test. On a better note, they say if you take your temp it rises when you O and doesnt go back down unless you didn't conceive and I didn't take it before lol, but its over 100 now still so I think its always been that high. but all we can do is wait!